As I watch YouTube Comedy Week(which is not quite kicking off like I hoped..) I have decided to make one of those "25 things about me", like you use to do via notes on Facebook. But, to keep it going, I am only going to do 13. I've got a lot on my mind and love to use my blog as a journal.
1. The semester is finally over and yet not? The grades are out(3.7!) and while I should be chilling for the summer, I have already mapped the summer classes as well as the fall classes. I feel ever-busy. And yet I like it. I appreciate my down time, but I do not want to find myself having too much of it. There is a ton of things I could watch, or read, or play, but I find myself wanting to go to work now that I have found what I want to do.
2. I am pumped for my internship. I am going to be teaching Digital Literacy courses/programs at a public library. The way it is set up is that my supervisor teaches for half the semester and I assist- then we switch. I might be able to utilize my love of music and teach an intermediate class on Spotify!
3. I'm stoked for summer because I am going to England. Here I will be taking British Librarianship and get to see many, many libraries. I already have homework for it! (Its not until July!)
4. During my trip I am going to spend time in Scotland for a little while(three days at least) Whilst here, I really want to get to know a Scottish man. They are my Achilles heel.
5. I plan to spend a lot of time outside of my room in the hopes of meeting Bennedict Cumberbatch, Matt Smith, or an on-par handsome British Gentleman. ( #romance) I also have many things I need to see architecture-wise.
6. I have become hyper aware of my use of contractions. (Examples of these I use are "don't", "I'm," and "won't.") I would like to speak more proper English. Not just because of England, but because it sounds better. This is sort of the same when I catch myself saying "legit" or "totes." Yup, it happens.
7. I really love the fact that I am taking a YA literature class this fall. It gives me an excuse to read things I might nit normally read. Currently I am reading Insurgent. I intend to read a lot more- the goal for the class is 30.
8. I want to complete both the Mass Effect series and the Assassins Creed series. Mass Effect is on pause until I have more money, I will be playing Assassins Creed II tomorrow. Its a day off.
9. I was rejected recently. I was being courted for two months, beginning to let my personal walls down, only to be hard-core turned down. I've been trying to brush it off, but everyday since(this was in the middle of this week) I have noticed a new aspect everyday. A new lesson learned, sort of. Like today, it dawned on me that I finally know I expect in an ideal mate. This guy matched a lot of them, like a lot. Too bad he wanted the other girl. Complete with her child.
10. Men are on my mind constantly. I have a lot of male friends. It is easy to do. And a lot of the BBC men I see(as mentioned above) make it hard not to think about them as well. Then there's Ryan Gosling, Olan Rogers(YouTube), Nathan Fillion, Jason Siegel, Chris Hemmsworth... See what I mean?
11. As much as I miss having a companion(being in a relationship), I do not want that any time soon. No matter how much I flirt with some of my male friends, I don't want to start anything serious before I go to England. I have hope that I could meet someone while I am there, even if it is just for a few fun dates, and I don't want to feel tied down to somebody back home. After the aforementioned #7, I think I am in the clear of my male friends' interested, but I am still going to be careful not to throw off serious vibes.
12. I really miss my college radio days. While they were only like two days away, I can feel it. I am constantly listening to the radio to see what's popular, who's new, and what's on air. Macklemore, Mumford & Sons, Of Monsters and Men, new Phoenix, new Daft Punk, and SO many more.
13. I really miss Jazz Band and Concert Band. Not so much marching band, except the music was just as cool. I can technically say that I have been playing for 11-12 years(woah!) but I'm probably very rusty. I use to be first chair. If I could find a band to join at URI, I would. I don't want to pay for a class, I know how to play, but I want back in. I don't want to lose touch with my alto saxophone skills.
And that's part of my mind, I might think of some more things later- like why in the world did I have a dream about Jude Law that was about hanging out with his family instead of a sexy-time one? Or, how I have been thinking about picking up creative writing again(I have an idea in mind that involves pirates and author-reader love) or how much fun I have drumming and jamming in my car. That's all in there too. Ttfn
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Sunday, May 19, 2013
Sunday, April 14, 2013
Lost in Austen
Yes I know it's not clever. Yes I know it's the title of a movie- I just watched it. And yes, I know every other woman has already felt what I'm feeling because I myself have been there too. At least a few times.
This evening my friend Kim introduced my roommate and I to a film called Lost in Austen. It has many memorable faces, one of which is Alex Kingston and the other two are Jemima Rooper and Christina Cole. I am a big fan of novel adaptations that are done well and by adaptation I do not mean novel to film, word for word. Here I simply mean that these ideas from the novel transpire in a fashion to the film (or tv) that we might not expect. Typically, the contemporary ones grab my attention. For example, I would classify Sherlock under this and love the show immensely. Once Upon a Time also does this and, again, I have seen every single episode. Now and again, a film does this and is quite good. As is the case of Lost in Austen. Mr. Darcy might not be my ideal mate(GASP!). I think I am more of a fan of Mr. Bingley. But both of them have a swooning courtship and they end up with their ideal mates.(The film twists this a bit, but it's okay because we identify with Amanda Price.) And I think that's why most women get lost in the works of Jane Austen.
Now I have been to Bath, England. And it is stunning. The Roman Baths are full of history. I know this is where Austen spent much of her time writing, and it is reference in the text. But it has nothing to do with what my mind is truly thinking. No, my mind is still stuck on the idea of honest romance. The picture she paints we find ourselves crying when love is denied and overjoyed when everything clicks into place.
When a woman reads an Austen novel, their favourite likely being that of Pride and Prejudice, they are instantly swept up in feelings of desire, passion, and courtship. The Austen era, while maybe a bit too focused on the who knows who or the attention to a monetary marriage, is still a world we desire to be in. We read these books, or watch these movies, and this is exactly how many of us live. Pinterest allows us to give our lives organization and an expression of what trends we would like to adhere to(an app I use often). Facebook allows us to "be up on" the who's who and we find ourselves looking to money in our perspective careers. The women of today are independent, thank god, so it's not that we need a man's money(unlike Austen's marriages) but we desire the passion that these characters feel. With texting we have almost lost site of letters, or what once might have been a phone call. And when a text is not received promptly, we carry on as if someone has slighted us. We don't take our time anymore, exploring the depths of a person(also known as courting) but instead we expect things to be instantaneous. I too fall guilty to this, I get it. For crying out loud, I've been talking to a guy for a few weeks and just when I have started telling my closest friends about him, he goes MIA for the weekend. All of this started to dawn on me throughout the movie. WHen it began, my friends were talking about how confusing men were. I kept quiet, which they noticed, because I am so in the middle of what I should be thinking. My friend looked to me, she also knowing of my "courtship" and said "well I guess not you though, huh?" and I said, "well I don't know what to think about not hearing from someone for a weekend." By the end of the film, the only thing I could think was that the romance of the movie seemed so simple.
Part of me thinks on how I want that courtship, but the other part of me is caught up in my desire of this man and I find myself wanting constant connection via mobile. And I hate that feeling. Not the desire for a person- that's quite fun- but the inability to not overthink when a person takes their time responding to me. I constantly rant about how (women especially) cannot unplug when they are spending "quality time" with their friends. When out to dinner or watching a movie, there are screens constantly separating that connection between the people. Often times we call this multitasking, but I feel that it's more that we've become unable to come to terms that something might happen if we leave the social media behind for a night. I digress... And what's more, for someone coming around to the idea of letting someone in their lives again, relationship or no, trusting someone new is hard for me; it's even harder to know when I'm being crazy about my expectations of that person. (If you've read my earlier blog posts, say this summer, that might make some sense. A quick recap: I don't trust easy anymore. I find myself constantly worrying about when someone will become tired of me because it has happened more times than...)
I think my want to start romancing again is something I can relate to the works of Austen or at least the movie I saw tonight based on her works. I feel like I can relate with Amanda Price, I'm a little out of touch with some of the women around me but, in the end, we just want to be loved and in love. So, do we let that curiosity for another person come out of our lips? Or do we play it cool and undemanding? Seemingly letting others act upon us. And that, dear readers, is how the mind of a woman works. Do I know if the mystery of where this guy went for the weekend is simple, no? But I want to keep reading anyways.
This evening my friend Kim introduced my roommate and I to a film called Lost in Austen. It has many memorable faces, one of which is Alex Kingston and the other two are Jemima Rooper and Christina Cole. I am a big fan of novel adaptations that are done well and by adaptation I do not mean novel to film, word for word. Here I simply mean that these ideas from the novel transpire in a fashion to the film (or tv) that we might not expect. Typically, the contemporary ones grab my attention. For example, I would classify Sherlock under this and love the show immensely. Once Upon a Time also does this and, again, I have seen every single episode. Now and again, a film does this and is quite good. As is the case of Lost in Austen. Mr. Darcy might not be my ideal mate(GASP!). I think I am more of a fan of Mr. Bingley. But both of them have a swooning courtship and they end up with their ideal mates.(The film twists this a bit, but it's okay because we identify with Amanda Price.) And I think that's why most women get lost in the works of Jane Austen.
Now I have been to Bath, England. And it is stunning. The Roman Baths are full of history. I know this is where Austen spent much of her time writing, and it is reference in the text. But it has nothing to do with what my mind is truly thinking. No, my mind is still stuck on the idea of honest romance. The picture she paints we find ourselves crying when love is denied and overjoyed when everything clicks into place.
When a woman reads an Austen novel, their favourite likely being that of Pride and Prejudice, they are instantly swept up in feelings of desire, passion, and courtship. The Austen era, while maybe a bit too focused on the who knows who or the attention to a monetary marriage, is still a world we desire to be in. We read these books, or watch these movies, and this is exactly how many of us live. Pinterest allows us to give our lives organization and an expression of what trends we would like to adhere to(an app I use often). Facebook allows us to "be up on" the who's who and we find ourselves looking to money in our perspective careers. The women of today are independent, thank god, so it's not that we need a man's money(unlike Austen's marriages) but we desire the passion that these characters feel. With texting we have almost lost site of letters, or what once might have been a phone call. And when a text is not received promptly, we carry on as if someone has slighted us. We don't take our time anymore, exploring the depths of a person(also known as courting) but instead we expect things to be instantaneous. I too fall guilty to this, I get it. For crying out loud, I've been talking to a guy for a few weeks and just when I have started telling my closest friends about him, he goes MIA for the weekend. All of this started to dawn on me throughout the movie. WHen it began, my friends were talking about how confusing men were. I kept quiet, which they noticed, because I am so in the middle of what I should be thinking. My friend looked to me, she also knowing of my "courtship" and said "well I guess not you though, huh?" and I said, "well I don't know what to think about not hearing from someone for a weekend." By the end of the film, the only thing I could think was that the romance of the movie seemed so simple.
Part of me thinks on how I want that courtship, but the other part of me is caught up in my desire of this man and I find myself wanting constant connection via mobile. And I hate that feeling. Not the desire for a person- that's quite fun- but the inability to not overthink when a person takes their time responding to me. I constantly rant about how (women especially) cannot unplug when they are spending "quality time" with their friends. When out to dinner or watching a movie, there are screens constantly separating that connection between the people. Often times we call this multitasking, but I feel that it's more that we've become unable to come to terms that something might happen if we leave the social media behind for a night. I digress... And what's more, for someone coming around to the idea of letting someone in their lives again, relationship or no, trusting someone new is hard for me; it's even harder to know when I'm being crazy about my expectations of that person. (If you've read my earlier blog posts, say this summer, that might make some sense. A quick recap: I don't trust easy anymore. I find myself constantly worrying about when someone will become tired of me because it has happened more times than...)
I think my want to start romancing again is something I can relate to the works of Austen or at least the movie I saw tonight based on her works. I feel like I can relate with Amanda Price, I'm a little out of touch with some of the women around me but, in the end, we just want to be loved and in love. So, do we let that curiosity for another person come out of our lips? Or do we play it cool and undemanding? Seemingly letting others act upon us. And that, dear readers, is how the mind of a woman works. Do I know if the mystery of where this guy went for the weekend is simple, no? But I want to keep reading anyways.
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